Credit: Anda Simona Roman
i invite you to say out loud
or to others
a crossing thought
nOW, what emotions did you feel while having that thought?
Was it anger? Happiness? Inspirational perhaps?
Did you get horny?
Was it something like
“Im not good enough”
“I’m not worth much”
“I’m not that special”
“I have issues”
or perhaps something like
“I love you”
What do you think about when the lights go out?
Now these thoughts
in fact these words
have more power than you could possibly imagine
because our thoughts are ultimately linked to emotions
are nothing more than mere nervous circuits releasing chemicals through our bodies
you’re addicted to your emotions and you don’t even know it
You’re addicted to putting yourself down
You’re addicted to your past - your memories
“Oh back then I had it good”
“Oh what if I would have done that or this instead”
“I shouldn’t have done that”
“I shouldn’t have had sex and gotten so drunk”
You get the gist
and not to mention
stressed about the puniest and most trivial things ever
you panic even more
you’re just not present
you’re not “here”
maybe you go on instagram
then get sad that
“wow she’s hot. I wish I had her body”
“Damn, I want that many followers”
Can you control your mind or does your mind control you?
you are placebo
do you trust yourself or are you at war with yourself?
Am i not my emotions?
because many of us are not intelligent yet.
many are not woke.
What does it mean to be intelligent?
You might argue that there is a difference between being “smart” versus being “intelligent”
however is that truly the case?
is that the right question?
Have you heard of the phrase “emotional intelligence”?
What does that mean?
Perhaps you’ll say emotional intelligence is about not falling prey to your emotions
not being a train wreck (yolo)
let me be the devil’s advocate
and tell you
that’s not the case
The paradox of our reality matrix is as follows:
The “cosmic you” or simply put, your consciousness
is the nucleus of your reality
anything that is matter
(that includes your brain)
is and are simply quantic probabilities
what does that mean?
Well, emotions are nothing more other than nervous circuits that release certain chemicals that out body then becomes addicted to
which means you
and your brain, are two separate things
you, your consciousness, the cosmic you
are two separate things
From a neurological perspective
you become the things that you think about in a repeated pattern and the object of your attention
if you hate/ dislike someone
and repeatedly talk trash
that becomes the object of your attention
and you (your body not your consciousness) become biologically addicted to the chemicals released in your brain of feeling small, unworthy maybe betrayed
because that’s the root of hatred
all within the subconscious however (because who would want to feel that willingly)
because the act of putting someone down is done so in an effort to feel “big”
if you do feel “big”
emphasis on “feel”
then why put in the effort for that action?
you become addicted to feeling "big"
The link between this cosmic you
and your brain
the part of you that resides within this dimension and reality matrix
is located within the frontal lobe of our brain
which was the last to properly evolve
that’s the area that’s in charge of seeing your future
controlling your behavior
and here is where I dare say
and contradict many
humans are capable of change
in fact, us humans, poses this unique advanced biotechnology of being able to change ourselves constantly
(Nietzsche and Dispenza agree)
and your frontal lobe is exactly the place that is able to do it
If we look at the cinematic scene
movies such as “Split”
present this concept
in a subtle manner
Our main character had a rare multi personality disorder
Dissociative identity disorder
yet by the end of it
he/they manages to evolve — to physically change his body
but the interesting aspect is that his original personality
the one before the trauma
wouldn’t have been able to conduct the physical change
only his two aggressive and ultimately “strong” personalities did
A key line in “Split” was
“You’re not worthy of life if you haven’t suffered”
hence the protagonist’s obsession with those who haven’t suffered
now besides the link with the character’s own trauma/ suffering
the deeper layer to this line has to do with what animates us
which brings me back to my first point
what are you reoccurring thoughts? where does your mind usually go? what’s your usual emotional state? are you usually calm and happy? or stressed, numbed and sad? Or do you just feel nothing?
most of you will resonate
whether consciously or subconsciously, with the latter two options
because it’s easier and more comforting to draw “power” from suffering, from being low
because that’s the fuel our society gives us
we’re surrounded by media/ news outlets that solely focus on negative news
we’re surrounded by people who overwork themselves and are ultimately always stressed
we’re surrounded by people who no longer live in this dimension but in the virtual one
we’re surrounded by horror/ thriller/ explicit movies and photos
that’s what we’re used too
and if you think that doesn’t affect you
then think again and wake up
because staying calm and maintaining a constant happy mood as to draw power from it
because we’re not used to that
so why tf are we so used to feeling like shit and seeing shit?
why do we normalize that?
why not be used to feeling good?
change is possible
start drawing power from your ups not your downs
find a balance between the two
Joe Dispenza, "Train Your Brain - Strategies and techniques of mental transformation"
Joe Dispenza, "You are Placebo"
Nietzsche, "Beyond Good and Evil"
Paulo Coelho, "The Valkyries"